Memoir

Embracing the bitter and the sweet

It started with an Olivetti― my first typewriter as an eleven-year-old―and a stack of clean white onionskin paper. When I sat down at my desk, the click of the keys made it official. I was no longer filling my journal with trivial notations about clothes and boy-girl parties and what my science teacher had to say about my lack of interest in geology.

I was writing.

Poems, stories and the 6th grade play. Once I began, I never stopped. A memoir, two novels, poetry, short stories and essays from middle school through college, in the slim borders between marriage and children and jobs.

I am not a former Prom Queen. I was the quiet smart girl with the black marbled composition book, writing tortured poetry and wearing a beret with a cigarette dangling from the corner of my mouth. But I was also the girl who wanted to belong somehow to a tribe―without changing who I was. I held the same wish we all share: to be known and understood for who we truly are.

Writing is my key to that door. The world of words. The naming of things. My place in the world.

Here I will chronicle my creative life, moment to moment, in a blend of memoir, fiction, poetry and inspiration. I will tell you the things I really want to say the way I want to say them. And share what I can about what I have discovered. Day-to-day, in the moment. Observing and recording, bearing witness.

The Bitter and the Sweet brings together a hopeful patchwork of words and images, memories and quotes. The journey of making art while life―with its rough edges and joyful mysteries―happens around me, unfolding like a lotus flower from the mud.

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The Time Traveler’s Wife

Just read for the second time and I wasn’t disappointed.

This unconventional love story, told in beautiful, lush language tells a complex story about the power of love to transcend time.

Worth the read if you want to dive deep into characters, conflict and connection.

Poetry

to sow and to reap

Ecclesiastes 3
…there is a time for every event under heaven
A time to give birth and a time to die
A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted

I can only sow new seeds each spring
never knowing if they will in sweet fullness rise

carrot greens like feathers against my skin
basil sharp with pepper on my fallow tongue

lettuce leaves blooming like layered flowers
roses wild and fickle under late arriving showers

I can only kneel here in the dirt
sowing this kitchen garden with my tears

for all that I have done
and all that I have failed to do

for the shoots that will not grow to the sun
the years that have passed in seasons one by one

knowing we are all of us from the earth
born of man to gather stones for a brief hour

but simple farmers set afield
bending to the rows for a measured span

I can only do as I must
carry water and scatter stones

reap and sow
love and let go

May 9, 2016